Here I Grow Again

Wow, I finally made it back. I know you say where have you been? What happened to ya? Well what can I say, except life happens. Anyway I'm so glad to be sharing with you again. Rather than try to catch you up, I'll just start from know.

I will have to add another topic on my I'm a survivor list. I just do not know what it will say yet the finale say from the doctors is not in. It might say I survived ovarian cancer or it could say I survived ovarian cancer scare. Either one will be great.

I'm telling you this is by far the hardest test yet of my faith in God. I mean with all the modern advances of science these days and they still can not tell you what it is until they go in and do what I like to call a lookie lu. Of course they have a name for it laproscopy I guess I spelled that right.

I told my producer I'm going to take my camera to every appointment that allows me from now on just so anyone that might need some strength from my experience might get it. I wish I would have had it when I got the results from the CT scan and it read in the first paragraph they saw a grossly normal uterus. I haven't had one of those in 20 years. I had a hysterectomy they removed my uterus and cervix at least that's what they told me. I guess I should have ask to see the old parts you know like when they fix your car.

I should have had it when my husband and I went to the first doctor appointment and I thought it was a tag team wrestling match with my husband and my family practice doctor agreeing on everything from me not using the Internet to find out more to the last commit of do not get all dramatic about this. Wow I am pretty sure that is the last time I will be in that doctor's office again . He always had a pretty bad bed side manner but this time I just can not take it. I left feeling betrayed by my uninformed husband and compassion lest doctor.

I'm waiting to see a gynecologist next. I will enter his doors with the same fervor and zest for knowledge as I always do and I hope to be received well and appreciated for taking a active roll in my health.

I will just say I believe my husband now understands my need to learn as much as I can about what is being said about my body at least I think he does one can only hope.

Love ya, See ya, Bye
Twilla